20 Nov 09

刚刚回我家路上，
SL 载我。。。
她突然放慢Motor，我还以为发生了什么事。。。
结果。。。
是一只牛要过马路。。。
我听见她说sorry。。。
不是对我说，而是对着那只牛说sorry....
哈哈。。。
那只牛还会回眸一看嘞。。。
笑死我了。。。
哈哈哈

汤圆。。。

提早过冬咯。。。
汤圆汤圆。。。
团团圆圆。。。

18 Nov 2009

星期三，我们心血来潮的决定尝试自己做汤圆。。。
就在这一天，我们到Tesco去购买材料。。。
材料就是糯米粉，糖，龙珠果，青草叶。。。
我们的材料都是天然的，没有任何色素哦。。。
而外卖了smarties------加料。。。。
哈哈。。。

19 Nov 2009

5.30pm --- 开始动工咯。。。

首先我们分配工作：
joey : 弄龙珠果汁
sin lu : 洗青草叶和弄汁
siew fei: 抹桌子 和 煮开水
kok yaw: 煮糖水
Tien Yi: ？？？？

我，joey and kok yaw 弄糯米粉。。。
3 碟 粉 --- 红色，青色 和黄色
猜猜看，黄色使用什么材料弄成呢？？？
最有创意的一种。。。
使用蛋黄噢！！！
哈哈。。。

弄好后。。。
开始搓汤圆咯。。。
有大小汤圆。。。
也有特大号的----里面有2 粒smarties。。。




我们都称这些汤圆为十万大军，曹操，诸葛亮， 刘备，关羽，八卦阵，一盘散沙等等。。。 可爱吧!!!哈哈。。。



5 位工作人员。。。


特制加料的----smarties 汤圆
像guli吧！！！
呵呵。。。


3 种汤圆参在一起。。。5 粒大的是代表了我们5位。。。
work as a team....
haha


这是专做给我们亲爱的group leader。。。
里面有3种大的 加 1 粒特大 的汤圆。。。
wakaka...


完成咯。。。




想吃吗？？？
我觉得做的过程中很开心。。。
第一次做嘢。。。
成功咯。。。
还蛮好吃的，不会太甜，蛮Q的，也没有什么糯米粉味。。。
哈哈。。。
^.^

18 November 2009 ---lazy tien yi

现在的我，变了。。。
变懒惰了。。。

这时候的我，应该是开始要准备大考，才对的。。。
相反的。。。
我却中毒了。。。
那毒就是连戏剧。。。
糟糕！！！
现在的我，在追着两出戏。。。
桃花小妹。。。海派甜心。。。
已经追到最新一集了。。。
幸好一个星期只出一集。。。
不然，我就完蛋了。。。

有点难控制我自己了。。。
有谁愿意吹我读书呢？？？

haiz...

14 NOV 2009---my diary

我今天的日记：

今天有个小考----International Marketing

考完后，他们突然决定要去Ipoh看戏----2012
The 2012 ticket is fully book...
so, we decide to watch Phobia----Thailand movie
是一部恐怖又带点好笑。。。
整部戏，我只看到一半。。。
因为。。。
因为什么呢？？？
因为一半的戏，我是闭着眼睛的。。。
哈哈！！！

At the Ipoh Parade...
There is organized Hari Diabetes Sedunia...
This event has provided a few free test such as
Body Mass Index
Blood Pressure
Fats In Body
Blood Sugar
Blood Cholestrol

I have taken the test, the result show that ---i'm normal...
But need to do more exercise,sleep early, eat more vegetable and fruits...
hehe

Around 8pm,
我们到green town去吃自由式steamboat。。。
RM19.90 per person
吃了好多食物。。。

今天，在吃午餐时，
他们突然讲我长的像‘菲比’。。。
真是气死我。。。
好不喜欢哦！！！
haiz...

sometimes, i just need someone use his/her heart listen to me...
haiz....

Bad news for UTAR students.....sad

1 NOV 09

Around 8pm, 当我到家,
Ee Ven 告诉我， ‘JAMES 不见了，被水冲掉了。。’
当时，我还以为跟我开玩笑呢。。。
过后看见她在哭。。。
所以就把消息传出去了。。。
我身边的朋友都问我：“是不是JAMES KHOR？？？”
haiz...

大家都在等最新消息。。。
都在祈祷他们都平安。。。

around 10pm something， online newspaper upload the latest news...
找到那女孩的尸体了。。。接下来就到JAMES。。。再来就是那男孩了。。。

我是在foundation就认识他了。。。
见到面就面带笑容。。。
总算是有缘认识到吧！！！
虽然，我跟他并不是很熟，
可是。。。可是。。。
当我得知找到他尸体后，心情有点低落。。。
什么都没心情做。。。
隔天还有presentation呢。。。
晚上又睡不着。。。
为什么会是他？？？

2 NOV 09

到现在为此，还不能相信他离开了。。。sad
9pm at westlake basketball field， 有举办一个哀悼会。。。
让他所有的朋友写下留言。。。
我没写在纸，只是合上手，闭上眼，默默的在心里说。。。
真的希望他们能够rest in peace。。。
就在这里说bye bye 咯。。。
希望你们能够往生到西方极乐世界去。。。

阿弥陀佛。。



。

Because You Love M3

title:because you love me
artist:celine dion

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
through it all
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I a Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me
You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

after finished this video, made me love this song very much...

Y2S2------>SHORT SEM

I have 3 subjects in this short sem...
which are Pengajian Malaysia, International Marketing and E-commerce

This sem make me feel very tired...
Because the timetable very pack and terrible...
The worst timetable that i 1st time got in UTAR

Monday: 3 classes, but start from 8am to 8pm
Tuesday: 2 classes, but start from 2pm to 8pm
Wednesday: 2 classes, but start from 8am to 6pm
Thursday: 2 classes, start from 8am to 12.30pm (non-stop)
Friday: 1 classes, start from 9.30 to 11am

I have 2 assignments, 2 presentations, 4 test and mid-term
walao...

在这学期，时间过得真快。。。
转眼间，一个星期过了。。。
总是觉得还有很多东西还没做。
有点害怕面对接下来的日子。。。
因为在1st week 就让我快喘不过气来了。。。
连小睡都会梦到alarm响了。。。开眼睛才过10minutes...
真是的。。。
开始温习，却不知自己在读什么。。。
I hope I can study smart, not study hard...
But I can't make it...
How to do that?
haiz...

有点想回家了。。。
想要逃避未来的日子。。。
：（

my holiday in y2s1

Now only upload the photo and update my blog...

25 sept 09
After final exam, my friends and I went to Ipoh shopping and took our dinner at Kenny Roger.



After reached Kampar, we went to snooker center...haha



26 Sept 09
I went to Penang--->Gurney plaza
very nice pictures at outside the toilet...hehe



Went there to watch a movie---> 3D G-Force



Bought a new watch---> Bonia
one of my birthday present...hehe
i love it so much...




Went to Batu Ferringi..
.

28 and 29 Sept 09

my Big sister's wedding...
congratulation to her...
at 28sept nite evening, i went to wash and set my hair...
after that have 1 lady helped me made up...
haha...



9 Oct 09

went to Butterworth...
Took my tea time at secret recipe...



10 Oct 09

Went to Nibong Tebal ...
we took boat...the boat has around 12 peoples...
To see the Firefly...



That all my holiday activities...
so boring....

17 September 2009

Finally, my OB paper past d...
But i feel very disappointed with it...
what i have memorize, didn't come out on the paper...
and i forgot what i have memorize...
and misunderstood the question also...
damn...
this paper i did it very very bad...
haiz...
i don't know how my brain is function...
when i face theory paper, sure will happen this kind of problem...(like forgot,blank mind...)

this morning i just slept 2 hours, then woke up at 3.30am to review all the chapter...
but...at the end disappointed with it...

after my lunch, i took a nap...
from 2-5pm...i kept on dreaming...
make me feel more tired...
in my dream, i having my marketing paper....
but the question is combined with the OB...OB+Marketing
i feel shock....
haiz....

today is bad day and bad luck to me...

i can't fulfill what i expect to get in this sem...
sad!!!

好可惜。。。

刚刚打电话问妈妈怎样煮‘asam udang’。。。
因为我打算明天要试试煮这道菜。。。yummy...

说完那道菜的步骤。。。
妈告诉我。。。
我的表哥昨天自杀去世了。。。
好可惜！！！
以前他还蛮疼我们姐妹的。。。
在这里，
我想告诉他:“哥哥，既然选择这条路，那就放下一切，好好上路吧！去投胎到更好的。。。或到西方极乐世界去吧。。。阿弥陀佛”

haiz。。。

28 August 2009...好想回家。。。

今天好多朋友都回家乡去了。。。
弄到我也想家了。。。

我总是给自己很多借口。。。
如果选择回家 --- 就会想到一定读不到书
--- 会浪费时间
--- 想到搭巴士，就觉得累。。。

如果选择不回家 --- 就会想吃家乡菜
--- 觉得闷。。。

这学期对我来说，的确是比较难应付。。。
要加好多油。。。
可是，那读书mood还没真真有咯。。。
怎么办啦！！！

可能这次选择不回，是对的吧！！！
虽然会有点想念，可是为了应付考试，是值得的吧！！！
要加油哦。。。

what i want???

好忧郁。。。

突然要我们选其中一科。。。
for elective subject at next sem...

financial accounting ;
recruitment and resourcing ;
international marketing

FA hv 150 seats
RR hv 200 seats
IM hv 150 seats

I don't know wat i want....
all of this 3 subjects...i'm no interested on it...
haiz...
next week need to register d...
what should i choose???
no idea on it...
:(

15 August 2009...worry...

week 12 is coming...

有点担心、害怕。。。
怕应付不来final。。。
因为学业方面已经跟不上了。。。
MIS 和 Biz Finance 有很多不明白。。。
自从MIS tutor Mr Yew change to Mr Yap...week 5.。。
从那时开始，我们的tutorial 完全没讨论过了。。。
里面的习题很难明白，不会做。。。
可是考试就是考那些。。。
haiz。。。

week12 still have 1 presentation...
现在。。。
我该去温习那些跟不上的part了。。。

田仪。。。
别气馁哦！！！

14 August 2009...

13 August 2009...
After class at 8pm, my mood suddenly changed...
a little bad mood...
no reason ...
haiz...
i'm too emotion...

felt sorry bcoz didn't reply someone massage...
...
...

14 August 2009...
20 years ago, a lady give birth a baby at hospital...
...
B4 12am...
i can feel my friends will celebrate with me...
bcoz 1 of my groupmate seldom late back home...
and i heard 1 car "the lock car's sound"...felt familiar sound...
haha

after 12am...
yong wei came to sf house...
she took a cloth to close my eyes...
and brought me to her house...
when took out the cloth,
i saw my 1/3 dear,1/3 sweetie,eggs,vincent, allan and my groupmate...
they sang a birthday song to me....
haha...
i made 3 wishes...
1---i wish all my friends,family, god-father and tw can be healthy and always happy
2---i wish can get better result in every exam...
3---secret...
haha
>,^


felt a little bit surprised, bcoz egg also came to celebrate my birthday...
haha

anyway thanks all of you, friends....


personal:
this year birthday, i cant feel any special feeling...
dunno y will feel like that...
last few years birthday, i will give myself do whatever i liked to do....
eat whatever i liked...
but today, i don't have any expectation and desire...
izzit...something wrong with me!!!
haiz...

week 10 weekend...

Boring diary...>.<

Friday :
At 10pm reached Tambun seafood shop...
we ordered fish, 大生蚝，赖流虾，螃蟹，vegetable and kapah...
only 2 peoples ate...
we ordered so many ...full till ....
only rm 115.xx ...
this can consider cheap d...
haha

Saturday:
we went to take breakfast...
i ate '咋哇面‘...long time didn't eat d...
hehe
after that, i took bus went back to Alor Star...
alone...
yea...
after one and half hour, i reached my home...
I saw my 大姐 and chat with her awhile.
after that, i played with my dog---tata
...
b4 i sms told my god-father 'i reached Alor Star'...
he called me...
he asked me where am i???
and said 2pm will fetch me go his house took lunch...
haha...
my mum also cooked for me...
i told my mum i will eat at god-father there...
she said ' tomorrow i dun want cook for u liao'....so sad...
haha

after came back from god-father house...my sister went back to Singapore jor...
haiz...

At night, we planned to watch 'harry potter"...
That movie only at 4.30pm...
so we changed to watch "G.I.Joe"----(if not misspell it)
i think that movie is not bad la...
hehe

Sunday:
Mum da bao rice for me...she dun want cook for me...so sad...
haha
i went to Clinic Ooi...my hand problem...
my hand not puff up d...just a bit pain...
still need to take medicine...haiz
the doctor said is 筋 problem...

after that, i went to god-father office...
went there took something...
he said 'i dunno what i want to buy for your birthday gift..."
and he gave me 1 angpau...asked me "buy by my own"...
...

Then, i went to popular bought pencil, bottle and file...
at 3.30pm , i went to bus station ...waited the "Konsotium bus" an hour...
Want went to butterworth then took another bus back to kampar...
i want anti-konsotium bus that go to butterworth one...
haiz...

Finally, around 10pm reached Kampar...
sien la...

useless day...

田仪。。。
真没用！！！
好蠢。。。
最烂的。。。
连短短三分钟的presentation都做不好。。。

好紧张。。。
当轮到我时，头脑突然一片空白。。。
不知说什么好。。。
cue card拿在手上也忘了。。。
真是的！！！
一直停顿，又看着我的小册子。。。
haiz....

真对不起我的group mate。。。
因为这presentation mark is 70% of 20 marks.
如果是因为我而影响到分数低的话，那就完蛋了。。。

真是对不起哦。。。

希望下次不会再发生了。。。

我必须要控制自己去面对它。。。
田仪一定要做到。。。
No excuse!!!

...3 August 2009...

Finally finished 1 of my presentation....
individual presentation...
English subject ...

2 of my group mate came to my house made up...
because our tutor said---girl need to make up.... my goodness!!!
we spend 1 and half hour to make up...-----like ghost....
when we reached our class...only 3 of us made up......walao....
haha...
this is my 1st time make up to campus....
hehe...

----My topic is HUMAN NEEDS...
is talking about Maslow Hierarchy needs Theory....
this my 1st time present without looking for the cue card...
hahaha...
but still need to improve a lot....

tired....
need to busy for 2 assignment...
and Thursday have 1 marketing presentation....
gambateh!!!!

tired....

tired ...tired... tired....
just finished week 9 ....
just past my OB test...haiz....very bad....
stupid tien yi...

now already week 10...August...
this week i have 2 presentation and need to pass up 3 assignments....
week 11 have 1 presentation and week 12 also have 1 presentation...
haiz....
very tired...

i want rest......

tomorrow have englisgh presentation...
haven't prepared my slide and practice...
haiz...
feel scare to present...

被耍了。。。

当我和两位groupmate 一起吃晚餐时。。。
我突然问耀，what is the share name??
因为在campus 使他有说过。。。
他说：“我几时说过这些东西啊？？？为什么我没印象的？？？”
他说了好多好多发生过好久的事。。。
他以为是刚刚发生过的。。。
害到我有点担心。。。

过后，连Fei也赞同耀说的是对的。。。
明明我很清楚那是什么时候发生，却让他们弄到我。。。
他们好厉害演，真佩服他们。。。（不如去当演员）

害到我担心他们，以为他们发生什么事了。。。
眼泪差点掉出来了。。。

当要到我家时，耀说：“我演的蛮好的，纯粹是make fun。。。"
真是的。。。
干嘛拿这些东西来玩啦。。。
我二话不说就直接下车，因为眼泪已经掉下来了。。。

你们爽了吧！！！
真是的！！！

nothing to write....

what should i write????
haiz...

feel boring...
lazy to prepare my individual presentation speech...
lazy to do the assignment...
feel like no mood to study and memories the OB......next Saturday test...
haiz..
feel like a bit emptiness...
y will like that ...
haiz...

Lost of direction d...
what should i do???
find back myself 1st...
where am i now!!!
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

miss....my star...at the night sky... !!!!!!!!!!

yeah....

I feel a bit happy...
Because my group mate told me our society activity will be postponed to next semester...
yea....

but the bad news is ......
is... the activity will organize become more big project...
haiz...
we need to do more and must do it perfectly...

Anyway...
Now I no need to worry about that 1st, can focus on other thing...
hehe...

Organization Behavior subject's mid-term is coming...
haiz...
no tips....
cover many topics...
need to memorize all the theory...
haiz...
Gambateh lo.....

Moody...- -

who is TIEN YI !!!
I not really know about TIEN YI...
who know TIEN YI???

After meeting, my mood suddenly changed jor...
When took dinner with my group mate, i felt that don't want to talk to anyone...
When my friend asked me what happened to me...
I did't choi her...
After that, she sms asked me......actually she sat beside me...
I very bad...I didn't reply her...

After dinner,when i reached home, another group mate send me message...
asked me the same question...
Feel sorry to them...
Anyway...Thanks friends....
Thank for concerned me...

Why my mood suddenly not stabilize one...
Feel like don't want to talk to anyone...
(not the 1st time already...)
Why oooo !!!
May be too tired....
haiz...

i must learn...
to control myself ....
to control my emotion...
to control ..............(many la...)
haizzzzzzzzzz..........

一首歌。。。

“你怎么舍得我难过”
主唱：黄品源

对你的思念 是一天又一天
孤单的我 还是没有改变
美丽的梦 何时才能出现
亲爱的你 好想再见你一面

秋天的风 一阵阵地吹过
想起了去年的这个时候
你的心到底在想些什么
为什么留下这个结局让我承受

最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
在我最需要你的时候
没有说一句话就走
最爱你的人是我
你怎么舍得我难过
对你付出了这么多
你却没有感动过

昨天，当我一张开眼。。。
突然想起这首歌。。。
去问我的housemate、朋友。。。
唱一小段给他们听。。。
询问歌名。。。
上网找了好久都找不到，可能找错了。。。
突然，我亲爱的阿茹，帮我找到了。。。
好开心。。。
突然觉得自己好固执哦！！！
嘻嘻。。。
^^

steamboat.....

the blue light look like the star...nice...

After my Business Finance test, we suddenly decided want went to Ipoh for steamboat...
当时的我,听到要去Ipoh，真的好开心。。。
因为唯有那时间是可以让我们轻松一下。。。
可能累了吧!!!
因为已经连续忙碌了几个星期。。。还要继续忙到week 12 为此。。。
haiz...

去到Ipoh的steamboat's shop。。。
我们选了药材和tomyam汤。。。
我们拿了好多的食物。。。
有海鲜，蔬菜，肉，糕点，雪糕，水果等等。。
吃到肚子都胀了。。好饱哦。。。
还蛮开心的。。。
嘻嘻。。。
^^

吃饱后，我们去了花园走走。。。
去那里踏石头，玩秋千，运动仪器等等。。。
当我们四个大小孩在一边玩秋千时，一边一起唱歌。。。
那里有好多小孩看着我们。。。
仿佛回到童年的时候，那种感觉，好轻松，好开心。。。




see both of them doing wat...

短短的六个小时就这样过了。。。
可是能让我觉得好开心。。。^^

又要回到忙碌的日子了。。。

tired...

突然觉得好累好累。。。
上课时，我尽然打瞌睡，没好好专心上课。。。
可能是因为开夜车吧！！！
最近都在忙assignment，下个星期又midterm 了。。。
好想有个休息站，能让我好好的休息一下。。。

感觉自己快要病了，开始发热了。。。
我的拇指痛，快要三个星期了，前天突然痛得比之前厉害。。。
现在的拇指又肿又痛，写字、拿东四 或其他的都有点不方便。。。
可是。。。无所谓啦！！！
haiz....

大家要多注意身体啊！！！
别累坏哦。。。

爱上这首歌。。。

[星光同学会 - 超级星光大道10强纪念合辑]

林宥嘉 - 我爱的人

我知道 故事不会 太曲折
我总会 遇见一个 什么人
陪我过 没有了 她的人生
成家立业之类的 等等

她做了她 觉得对 的选择
我只好 祝福她 真的对了
爱不到我 最想要 爱的人
谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人 不是我的爱人
她心里每一寸 都属于另一个人
她真幸福 幸福得真残忍
让我又爱又恨 她的爱 怎么那么深

我爱的人 她已有了爱人
从他们的眼神 说明了我不可能
每当听见 她或他说 我们
就像听见爱情 永恒的嘲笑声

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自从上个学期（y1s2）开始,不知不觉的爱上这首歌。。。
很有意思哦！！！
这首歌还可以表达出他人的心声呢！！！
嘻嘻。。。

还记得我去了个生活营（PHP team building 2009）...
当在玩“high rope” 时，如果你越紧张，你的脚就会越抖。。。
虽然是站在10meter高的树上，为了要放松自己，我却望着远处唱了这首歌。。。
真的很有效嘢。。。
除非你亲生体验过，不然很难形容出那种刺激又害怕心情。。。
有机会一定会再尝试。。。

信心在哪！！！！

嘿。。。 你真的是田仪吗？？？
我认识的田仪不在出现了。。。
现在的田仪没勇气，没信心去接受一个任务了，不敢挑战了。。。
每次都会犹豫不决。。。
怕自己做得不好，没水准。。。
而且感觉好像不敢再去做决定了。。。
为什么！为什么！为什么会那样！！！
可是，如果不曾现在担任一些责任，去尝试，去挑战。。。
即使做得不好也没关系，就当作累积经验吧！！！
以后就会做得更好，不是吗！！！
可是，田仪会这么想吗！！！
听说过“没这么大的头，就别戴着么大的帽。。。”
是这样吗？所以才没信心吗？？？
田仪总是离不开怕怕的心情。。。

田仪。。。为什么总是看不起自己，可是却不希望人家看不起。。。
好矛盾吧！！！
田仪真的那么烂吗？？？
有时，会告诉自己不要在乎别人的眼光或怎么看田仪。。。
可是，不管怎样还是会在乎别人的眼光。。。
这真的重要吗！！！
这可难控制得到的事。。。
田仪有什么优点呢？？？只有缺点像座山那么高。。。
haiz



有时。。。
虽然是件小小的事，可是当你把它当成是个责任，会有不一样的结果。。。
就算是做了小小的事，人们都不懂得珍惜你。。。
这值得吗！！！
可能吧！！！

突然。。。

昨晚在吃着晚餐。。。
突然接到妈妈的电话，她说。。。（不方便写）
我被吓到了，很着急的问她好多问题。。。
妈说“都发生了，还能怎样。。。”
haiz...
挂了电话后，心情有点低落，眼眶里也有点泪水。。。
当时，有个人感觉到我有事了。。。
我当时只能告诉他“是家事”。。。
真对不起。。。
我不知要怎样告诉你，我只能收在心里。。。
不知如何才好。。。

有时候觉得有个可以分享内心世界的朋友，有多好啊。。。彼此都信任对方。。。
什么都可以分享，不管是爱情，家事，朋友，等等。。。
因为当你什么都收在心里，只会让你觉得难受，会喘不过气来。。。
会很累。。。
如果有个肩膀让你靠一下，会让你觉得舒服些。。。

家里突然发生一些事，真的很难接受那是事实。。。
真担心。。。
虽然，我在这儿读书，我还是必须为家事而烦。。。
为什么会发生在我家。。。
真的要那样吗！！！
没其它办法了吗！！！
我还是会反对那样做，可是不论到我做决定。。。
未来是怎样，我真的不敢去想。。。有点担心。。。
我只能帮到一些而已。。。真的对不起。。。


感觉有点压力。。。 现在的我，只希望自己忙点。。。
不想去想那些事。。。
可是，我可以那样做吗！！！
我毕竟是家里的一分子，必须要分担点吧。。。
家里都为这事而烦。。。
haiz...